Rock and Racehorses: Confessions of a Rock Dork

Rock and Racehorses
Rock and Racehorses

I’ve seen over 213 bands perform in my lifetime. The apartment walls are filled with compact disc towers. Nine crates of records line the floors of my little apartment. Music plays on the iPod player in the bedroom. Music plays on the computer in the living room. Rock albums and posters decorate the walls. Bumper stickers smother my car. I’ve been surrounded by music all my life.

My friend Cindy calls me The Steel Trap because I remember so many little pieces of my childhood. Music is no exception, and it’s astonishing how many songs equal memories for me. I don’t have the greatest memory in the world but for music, I do.

My father grew up on the Jersey Shore and was playing in bands by the time he was 14 years old. He cut his teeth on The Rolling Stones and The Kinks. He played bass in the Asbury Park music scene in the late 60s and early 70s. Another Jersey Boy by the name of Bruce Springsteen was a part of that very same scene. While my mom did not play an instrument, she is also a music lover and faithfully attended Dad’s shows and rode in many a gear-filled van to see him play all over the Tri State Area.

My brother inherited the family music gene and became a skilled guitar player. He played a few instruments in bands but does not play much anymore. I played piano for a few months before I had the (mis?)fortune of getting bitten by a Polish Arabian horse named Concord. Concord managed to break my finger, remove the fingernail, and mangle the finger enough to warrant a few stitches, thus ending my illustrious piano career. My finger still bears the scars of this fateful chomp.

While I was in high school and college, Dad got together with some old bandmates and played local bars and coffee shops for a few years. They were cool enough that my little grunge rocker buddies would come see them play. Dad and his friends did a great cover of “In the Pines- Where Did You Sleep Last Night?” and my high school friends thought their taste in Nirvana covers was impeccable; in reality, they were playing the song as homage to Lead Belly. Dad purchased an upright bass a few years ago and I still hear him play every once in a while. Every few Christmas Eves, Dad plays bass and my husband plays guitar and Mom and I are treated to a little concert. The songs are not your standard Christmas fare- the guys normally play Neil Young and old Bee Gees tunes with a few Christmas songs thrown into the mix.

As a child, I remember loving certain songs I heard on the radio and on my parents’ turntable. They played a lot of Tom Petty, Joe Jackson, and The Police. On the radio, anything by Duran Duran was awesome. It’s amazing to browse through lists of popular songs in the 80s and see how many songs I remember from my childhood. Music filled my childhood- from the Ghostbusters theme song to “When Doves Cry”.

Grade school was about finding my musical identity. Adolescence is a time of confusion- to add to the confusion, my brother was a bit of metalhead for a few years in the 80s. He was a pretty big fan of Dokken. I tried to listen to his music, but the only band of the time that made sense to my little brain was Judas Priest. In the midst of my wandering, I found Bananarama– my first ever cassette tape of my very own was their 1986 classic, True Confessions. Then, the grade school girls got to me. At first, I played along. I danced along to Fine Young Cannibals and sang along to The Bangles. At a slumber party, we pretended to be Jersey band Bon Jovi and air-guitared our way through songs. I was Tico Torres, the drummer. We rode the dance and hip hop trends through 7th grade, memorizing “It Takes Two” and dancing to the remixes of “Wiggle It”. But the music of the grade school girls grew old. I longed for something more… then I discovered classic and alternative rock.

I cut my teeth on the easy stuff like The Beatles. Then I dug deeper into the classic rock pool and raided my parents’ record collection. Then I found college radio. Then the world opened up. By the time I entered high school, I was free of the Top 40 shackles. No more Timmy T, no more Stacey Q, no more Paula Abdul, no more Marky Mark and the Funky Bunch. I had located my local alternative rock station and was enjoying Lush, The Stone Roses, Sugar, Suede, The Pixies, Peter Murphy, and so many more. Then I discovered punk. By this time, my brother was in college and the music he listened to was impossibly cool- no matter how hard I tried, he was always way ahead of me with the cool music. He ditched the metal bands years ago and was listening to the edgiest college music in existence.

The beginning of my concert-going history is an amusing hodge-podge of acts. The first concert I ever saw was at the Garden State Arts Center (now called the PNC Bank Arts Center) in 1987. Weird Al Yancovic was the opening act for The Monkees, sans Mike Nesmith. I was ten years old and I was pretty sure it was the coolest concert I’d ever see. Shortly after that concert-going experience, I saw The Beach Boys with John Stamos on drums. I was off to a running start, wasn’t I???

I gained a bit of teenaged hipster credibility with my next concert: Frank Black opened up for Brooklyn’s ambassadors of love, They Might Be Giants. And from there, I saw about 208 more artists and met my husband at one of these concerts. I also had the pleasure of meeting some of my favorite artists, including Kim Deal, Gene Ween, and Janet Weiss– I’ll unearth the photographic evidence one of these days.

The Steel Trap remembers music like it’s a soundtrack. I remember the Janet Jackson song that was playing on the radio the first time I ever jumped Alibar over a big jump. I remember the Nirvana and Ween songs I listened to the first time I borrowed my dad’s car to visit my high school boyfriend. I remember teaching my friends about the Violent Femmes. I remember making mix tapes. And more mix tapes. And more mix tapes.

Through college, I learned about national and local acts. I had aspirations of being some sort of zine girl (I still have the cutouts for the first edition). Or maybe I’d be in a band (I only learned two chords). I listened to all the music I could find. I made mix tapes. I listened to mix tapes. Rock turned indie and suddenly my friends’ bands sounded just like the big college radio bands. I gave my Surfer Rosa CD to my then boyfriend (now husband) and told him it was the greatest album of all time- he agreed.

After college, I was still surrounded by music: shows, radio, and my friends’ bands. I had to do a lot of driving for work and to visit my horse so I was always accompanied by music. As I became more involved in horse racing, the mix for the drive to the track became very important. The traffic-riddled drive to Delaware Park has a 2 CD volume consisting of poppy tunes that are great for car-singing. The wild-eyed, coffee-fueled 1am drive to Saratoga to catch the sunrise has an anthemic feel, with a little soul and a brand new radio single or two.

My maturity into adulthood has a soundtrack- it’s a patchwork of the strangest songs. Like a photo, a song can capture a moment in time and define a feeling. Starting tomorrow, I’m embarking on an exciting and fun journey with this blog: some of my favorite artists, writers, and friends will be sharing their musical experiences and ideas with me. We will learn how music has shaped us. I’ll still be posting my training with Wizard and anything else that’s happening, but be prepared for some fabulous guest bloggers :^)

Souls' Release at The Crossroads- Garwood, NJ

Souls' Release at The Crossroads

Love Cinema Volume 6 and sprayed beer

Souls' Release at The Crossroads

Shhhhhh! Recording at WPLJ

Ape Fight at the Loop Lounge

Hey Tiger at Maxwell's, Hoboken, NJ

Souls' Release at Mexicali Blues. Teaneck, NJ

Bass Amp Head

Milwaukees @ Maxwell's

The National at the Troubadour

Arcade Fire @ TLA, Philadelphia

A List of 212 Bands I've Seen

Rebecca and I in our ill-advised Jersey Girl phase. Before I was a rock dork, I dabbled in hair-chickdom.
Rebecca and I in our ill-advised Jersey Girl phase. Before I was a rock dork, I dabbled in hair-chickdom.

Aqueduct November 2008: Highs and Lows



Smile your on remote camera, originally uploaded by budmeister 26.2.

Pictured: Photo from Budmeister’s Flickr photostream of me and Jessie modeling for the remote camera. Note the focused expression on my face. It’s a tough job standing on a track pressing a button, you know.

Old Fashioned and Larry Jones

Happy trainer, happy horse. The convincing winner of the Remsen is on the Derby Trail. Exciting news for the connections of Old Fashioned, a colt by Unbridled’s Song. Trained by Larry Jones and owned by Fox Hill Farm. What a thrill this must be for this horse and his fans. Brings me back to my childhood and the Derby Fever I felt for my favorite racehorse, Sunday Silence. I remember carefully cutting photos of Sunday Silence out of our local newspaper and taping them on my bedroom walls. He was magical in my young mind.

Springside injured after winning the Demoiselle

But the news was overshadowed by injuries in the other two marquee races at Aqueduct. Springside, winner of the Grade 2 Demoiselle, took a bad step after the wire and fractured her pastern. She was vanned off, stabilized, and is at New Bolton receiving the best of care. I join the rest of racing fans in hoping for a speedy and safe recovery.

2001-2008

Later that afternoon, Wanderin Boy broke down on the turn in the Grade 1 Cigar Mile. My little group of colleagues stood on the photographers’ platform in the inner rail watching the race unfold on the monitor. When the horses hit the turn and we saw what happened, it was painful to be trapped there, shooting a hollow victory. I felt a glimmer of hope when I saw the horse ambulance load him. He was vanned off for treatment but his injuries were inoperable and he was euthanized. I extend my sincere condolences to the connections of this game and resilient horse- it must be devastating to lose a horse like him. Steve Haskin of the Blood-Horse wrote an insightful, strangely prophetic piece about Wanderin Boy’s career and health issues in October and had to end the chapter with a thought-provoking memorial yesterday.

As a horse owner who recently lost a very special horse, I think that my current mental condition makes me a little more vulnerable to reacting emotionally to the breakdown of a horse like Wanderin Boy. These stories also bring me back to my childhood. I was in grade school when Go For Wand suffered a catastrophic breakdown in the Breeders’ Cup Distaff, but it had a profound impact on me. I felt like I could not be a horse lover and also be a racing fan. I lost enthusiasm for the sport; while I was still a casual fan, it was several years before I put my heart into racing again.

As a horse lover and a fan of a variety of equine disciplines, there is a conflict within me whenever I hear news of a breakdown. Can changes in breeding, racing surfaces, and training ever truly prevent deaths caused by racing? How do racing-related deaths measure up to fatal injuries caused by other equine sports? Is racing humane? Are my other favorite equine sports humane?

I read everything I can about equine health and science in order to educate myself about our sports. I educate through my photos and share everything I can about racing with people who are not familiar with the sport. When I see a good trainer who cares for his horses and who properly conditions them, I do see happy horses. I see horses who are exercised daily, fed the best feeds, and are maintained like the athletes that they are. I am a fan of these trainers and these trainers are the ones who keep me coming to the track, camera in hand, to capture the next Sunday Silence.